Smothered

Pride, is an awful thing to have when present in more than the required quantity. It wields the strength of the absolute restrainer. Smothers feelings to death for its sake, replaces it with a whiff of nonchalence. Probably there will be a time and a place and a honesty to say in exaction, the depth of feelings you have for each. Probably this struggle to verbalize has been a main featured default. There's more reality beneath the indifference. I swear there is. Hmm...honesty is such a lonely word, it feels, perpetually pent up. :(