Emotional fasting

The lack of action speaks more than the way action speaks! But really, a realisation crept to me this couple of days. Heard it before, but somehow when you arent in a certain frame of mind, some words just don't stick. Holding thoughts to changing situations just will not do. Accepting that God has the grand scheme in mind, something myopic eyes cant appreciate at this point.


The instinctive reaction to unpleasantries is the "why-me?!" retort. Why, because everyone has their own share of shit to wipe. Crying about the soiled bum does not change the status quo. Clean the mess, and push on! Another realisation is that sometimes unpleasant things happen because of disobedience. Es said something that stuck with me. That is, His love is unconditional, no doubt. But, blessings arent. Blessings come with obedience. Sometimes we don't realise how we run away and refuse to answer Him when He calls. I realised that disobedience may not be very conspicuous. In fact, the realisation may only come after recall. And ya, of course i was disobedient. Excuses to escape cell was one. Finally did attend today, but still. Blessings will not come if there is no faith too.


I really wish my thoughts were not so regurgitative. They work like a conveyorbelt system. Same thing goes round and round and round. It is so frustrating at times, but I'm sure this is within my control to curb it. What is needed is Strength to stay rooted, Faith to stay focused. And to treat people with love. This doesnt come naturally at all, since i am a judgemental person who sticks to stubborn thoughts once they are formed. I am praying for that genuine simplicity of the heart to want to be nice to another person. As i'm typing this, i wonder the possibility of it. Ironically, that is displaying a lack of faith.


Leeching emotions on another person is as stable as a riding the waves in cardboard. Emo things are like Lilliput ropes and voodoo pins that sticks like stubborn shit. You may even let off a loose smirk as you think..Gee..This thing? Get me down?? But hold, you really never know till it happens. Snub Sentimentality in the eye, we are just as good as our selective memories. aha! So this means less bothered and happier.



Take the trash out on a regular basis, some things just cannot be recycled.