Move like squid, think like octopus

So physically tired. Strange how much one week's exposure adds up to be. It meants much to me, having pushed out of my comfort zone. In a situation where you have to smile and mingle. Not really my cup of tea. I often think of myself as a closet recluse. How to make conversation without sounding like an interogator, basically how to engage a meaningful conversation. Nothing beats the awkwardness of having a two-person conversation and suddenly stuck with a constipating silence..And meanwhile everyone seems to be morbidly transfixed on a random ant carrying food, while desperately ticking off the checklist of things to say. That is probably why i don't exactly love one-to-one outings, cause it makes me nervous. Actually i find it stupid to think about such, but it seems very difficult to let it go, throw caution to the wind, and just be spontaneous. Ironically, when I remind myself to be spontaneous, the result turns out to be even more constipating. So never mind, just leave it as it is, go out in groups, and hopefully more ants cross paths with us.




The office people operate like a crustacean band, like they have segmented bodies and conjointed limbs. How do they manage multitasking mastery?? Baffles me deep cause i'm spurred on by the amoeba. Talk to me, then i can't type. Just do one thing at a time. This is working against the situation cause speed is fast. There aren't other interns around, only another accounting intern(but i have yet seen her around), so it is impossible to skive, no chance, and since what i'm doing now is actually fun mostly, so no reason to. Which is great, cause when i reach home i'm too bummed out to think myself silly. Check mail, not for gossipy spams, like i always do when im bored, but for work from Janice. I dunno, it just feels very rewarding to be trusted with relatively important things to do, and without having someone to second check your work, 2 minutes later. It feels, validated, trusted. But of course, filing and all that boredom is also part of the job. Today, the regional director bothered to take time to talk to me for 20 minutes, which i think it's very nice of him to do so, to explain the structure of the company and all that. Something i learnt only today is that 90% of hp and dell's products include SANs, which is the IT solution that brocade is providing. So that makes hp and dell, brocade's OEM. They do mainly OEM business. I thought that was pretty good to know.



Anyways, Gerald(regional director) said to me that the Singapore branch of Brocade has a position empty, the Local head. Speculation is rife about who or whoelse is about to fill this power vacuum. Interesting to watch. :)



I dunno, just really tired. Drained, in all sense of the word. But better drained than constipated. Don't wish to leave things on the limbo. But just hope things gets better, hmm ya..although i don't see how leaving the situation to rot will make it any better. It's ok, play by ear i suppose. Have a good day. :)


fyi-->(Raffles place has scary crowds, can potentially make normal people develop agoraphobia. We are seriously over-populated, we need to reclaim MORE land. Do you know Mongolia is the least populated area of only 2.6 million excluding donkeys and camels?)