On a more serious note.


I wish some funny knot in my heart will be entangled, cause it is bewildering to say the least to see the twist of events in life. Perplexing because underneath it all, you have to realise that for certain elements, the ball is not in your court. And even if it is in your court, well, i should say its very good. But guess what. You arent the referee, nor do you set the rules, but you abide by them, get in the court with a good number of folks. Prolly you will surely get to see the ball, but do you even get to rest a pinkie on it. So the game makes you sweat. Think again if its sweat from the heart pumping adrendaline, or the cold sweat. Both essentially sweat, but from two a starkly contrast in the emotions.


The surface is usually a whole mask of a difference from the real deal. Tears of happiness, tears of sadness. Tears. Super warped it is. It is essentially this topsy-turvy-curving-and-whirling type of feelings that churns inside me most times. With half the time, pretty confused as to how i feel. Mostly it is haphazard, kooky and really random. So i will very much love to seek for a certain emo-stability from within, that guides some coherent thoughts or behaviour.


As of late, my behaviour and thoughts are random and undefined. Who likes that right. So there. With exams creeping up, i guess as for now, the weird thoughts have to be ignored for awhile, and shall go channel my haphazarded feelings into hitting the books.


I think i see a reflection of someone yet again. tell me all about it.