Here's Hi to the few people who read this blog. I haven't came here for sometime, it was a couple of years ago since i wrote about anything vaguely relevant to real life. It was random snippets, or at its best, piecemeal.
2 reasons why so...As i grow older, i look at some of my past entries, and actually feel both a disjointment from past to present. I plead not guilty to schizophrenic tendencies, rather change as a function of time and experience. I believe most can relate to that. Hardly feel like a "vivadiva" anymore. It was an extension of personality then, but not now.
Second, must be pretty obnoxious to think that my mundane musings are substantial enough to take up people's reading time and bandwidth. They must at least be useful to others. I'll vouch not for its educational value, haha.
Reason why i'm here...Just to verbalize encouragement to a friend.
Hey Girl,
I know you are hurting because all the effort you have ploughed in has not reaped its rewards. You feel that your unconditional trust has been slighted by someone undeserving. Pls do not torment yourself with circular thoughts of disdain. Negativity only heads south. Yes, it burns, those scathing remarks, it continues to haunt you even as you try to disown them.
But, slowly and surely, you MUST believe that you can get over this. There is no way around it. You can over this hurdle. Trust in Him and yourself in that. Our worth and confidence should not be anchored on a person's dictation. Nor should he/she become a heuristic example of what we think of ourselves.
Look towards the light, always, everytime. Shite happens. Shite happens to everyone. It is not meritocratic ok. I'll be with you! Stay upbeat! :D
in case you forget, you can come back to this page :)
