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Orange Dino goes carnivorous on domesticated kitty :D

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TEE HEE HEEEEE


Here goes, the continuation of yesterday���s random rants. Actually felt poof-ed asleep on the laptop soon after. So there were some FNinfilanbvliabvlisabv words like that on the screen in the morning. Sleep is erratic and little. Get back at nearly 12am, out by 630am. Weary body, energetic mind. Met the entire Aussie team in 2 weeks back to back. Drink sessions were WAY too much. Almost half of the boat quay belt both front and back has been frequented by us these ten over days. Its an average of two bars a day. I don't understand the purpose of bar hopping when we can sit comfortably at one bar? Instead of hopping around? Once i suggested.."hey why dont we go coffee bean?" Got a strange look in return..haha..This is pretty straining on the body, but I really cannot let go of the chance to meet so many new people in a more relaxed setting, talk to them, learn more things. Get name cards, build contacts. I really regretted not making the most out of Citibank the other time, and im not going to let this slip by again. Got to be AGGRessIVE. Rarrr...haha..anyways..One more week to go before this horse carriage turns pumpkin on me. Next week is like Farewell week. It's puzzling to me that instead of one single gathering, i have three seperate dinners with three groups of colleagues. Coincidentally, they sit near each other too. Is the faction THAT bad???

Yesterday was the end of the channels event. It was at the A*Data storage Institute, very clinical, technical, mathematical haven. Felt quite stupid in contrast to all that. So on the first day, which was two days back, 26/7, I doubled up as the tourguide and picked ten over guests from the hotel to head to the office. A full introduction of Singapore, garden city, tourism board emblem, the merlion, esplanade, lau pa sat..blah,..many many more. (Quite ironic that later in the day, a particular somebody became the toilet caricature of a certain half-fish-half-lion spewian.) Ailan wasn���t there, so I was basically left alone with people whom I never seen before. It is quite intimidating to have 30 pairs of sleepy eyes looking at you at 7am in the morning. Smiled like the courtesy lion and tried my very best to be genuinely delighted, not deranged. Succeed I supposed.

Was living in the textbook chapter called "Motivating Channel Partners", cause indeed it was. Got in touch with some of the sensitive issues like the OEM conflict and how protective the partners are to their end users.Interesting. Let me digress abit. FYI, do you know that the lamb is the ONLY animal that does not retaliate no matter how hard you whack it? It just bleats and go MAaaaaahhhh..and when you cover its eyes with a black cloth, Sheep thinks, "ooh, bedtime!", and drops dead. When you remove the blindfold, Sheep goes, "ooh, rise and shine!" And starts frisking around. You literally can pull wool over their eyes. Aand wait. Why am i saying all this????

On a sidenote, today���s event at Level 69, Equinox was quite a blast. The setting looked so different from the last time we went for a look see. My fave is Conrad. It is reeking utter slickness. Fullerton has this bourgeoise feel, Raffles is very old-schooled; they are still using the chandelier-ed lightings in their meeting rooms. Pan pac is quite typical, like Meritrus mandarin, cant really tell the difference. I think the Equinox's positiong, (both "feel" and the height of it) is in full tandem with Brocade's IT positioning in the SAN industry. Post event had us adjourning to new asia. So it was good, it was sponsored by Netapp. They have a drink called the cuban Mohito. It is deceptively smooth, deceptively potent. It is actually a concoction of mintleaves in lime, with barcadi and rum. They go to lengths to suss out the flavour of the mint, roll it over the lime and strain it with the rum, top it up with ice. Very light but really STRONG. am quite surprised really. Lots of pple. Here I must thank Weixiong who helped us for a day prior to the event. How we roped in Wx to help is a long story. But he was really such a major help.

Seems the notion of Love can blind one from all the flaws of the other. Until it reaches a stage where one feels shes the luckiest mother hen on Earth, and the other, the luckiest cockaroo of the troop. Actually everything here will pass, best friends will become good friends, good friends become friends, friends become accquaitances, soon before long, you don���t even realize the existence of each other. And the opposite cycle begins. That���s the beauty of life, to have some doors closed, and to have the key to open another. It is sad to see the camaderie flown away. The best thing to make out of this is that something better must be flying this way. Actually, hmmm, feels abit stagnated.



I was home at 9 plus, and it feeels GREAT! I am SO not looking forward to school, the dread is in the bones. WHAT TO DO...SIGH

HAPPY THOUGHTS

It is really such an absolute insane ridden week. Well, last week was, but it was more "internal" cause the guys from overseas came over for a quarter 3 meeting. This week is more of a channel partner week. So now i'm at DAY2 of the Channel's event where we see a mix of Brocade's partners, of the likes of Fujitsu, Adic, etc..So incredibly fun. Well, post event fun. Everything when on so good, the pieces of the jigsaw dance themselves into place. All i had to do was clap to the dancing pieces. Haha, of course there was SO many behind the scenes work. That was on Monday where i slogged it out till 11.30pm in the evening ALONE in the office. Where the office was mine for 3 hrs, and i was skipping through the office whilst getting my things done up. Who cares about the security cameras?? It was the same night that i trolled the streets of boat quay and wrote those emo-angsted thoughts. But its all good now.



Mingling with more channel partners, talking to more people gave me more insight to things in life. Like for example, the other day i was speaking to the Fedex delivery man, he taught me new things that i didnt know too! Anyways, a small side track. I was thumbing through the papers today, and it spiked out the points to teach Sporeans to cast their half-assed snotty attitude aside. A foreign leader(from Indo, in '98) even went as far as to say the "little red dot's" "success was as interesting by virtue of the absurdity of our existence." Wow. Look at the beautifully laced arsenic. So this sudden wave of nationalism swamped over. The occasional spurts that says "we can laugh at ourselves, but who are you to laugh at us???" Actually its not that Spore has a promiscuous foreign policy, but due to the itsy bitsy geographical dot, having a colourful foreign policy is not something that Spore can enjoy. Totally agree to that. The sampan may be strong enough to cross the river, owing to the efficiency of the oarsmen and the oars, but the job can be twarted by some uncooperative big wave.


So much to say! Maybe til tmr

Double clicks

So much things to say, so little time to emote it. There are actions meant to be executed, there are flimsy thoughts meant to be exterminated. All in all, the strength of the mind is often cheapen by the self-disrespecting owner. To add in a disclaimer before a work is even attempted is pure testement to that. I was at Raffles place, walking the stretch pass the UOB building, with all that smeared orangey hue across from far. It was such a sense of empowerment as i recall the events of the day, i'll just leave it as that. :)


People, when placed in uncomfortable zones, only when that happens does learning and maturing take place. The pain is worth the gain. But again as i walked past the familiar grass patch, it just wringed my heart to remember. Right there, the sense was to be bottlenecked. It felt like yesterday's today. Reached a resolution: Quiet strength. Not obligated to justify. Re-inject that feverish psych. Felt so strong.


Had this wondering thought. If i were to write all the thoughts in its raw unpolished form, sealed in a bottle, annoymity assured, cowered with a smoldering sense of invincibility, greatly divided by the great recesses, is it, Then, until then, can we feel safe and secure to abandon the leash we have held on so taut and so tight. And with this little whim of the moment, let our hearts run amok the wilds, and can truely say, I have really lived.

Happy, that's WHY.

Happy i made the right choice.

Happy to see it go.

Happy to recognize that it was a myopic & blur choice

Happy that it has gone

Happy that i wont see anything like it again

Happy to see smthg, and it further justifies that it is good to go!

I don't regret it one single bit. :)

I made the right choice.



*randoms:
1) if it's right, it is correct, than why correction is to correct a wrong???
2) why does milk in liquid form come in Evaporated & Condensed form, and still look vaguely the
same??
3) why tell me why why why why why why?!?!

Tea or Coffee or..?

Think about it. Just let the events take a stroll in the mind, and i always love to walk the park!

coffee breaks are good too..brunches...hmm...also good..dinner..hmm..very good...highspeed down the ECP laughing at crass jokes...Purposely go by the long way...lagi best!

but i think nothing beats morning breakfasts @ chinasquare food centre where the entire place is breaking dawn, and the Macdonald's aunty just arrived to open shop, and there you are, sitting on a white chair, under a tent shaped BIG umbrella, one sipping teh-o, the other teh-peng(so early?!?), sometimes almond susu..heee.


I really don't wish to go back. I am really grateful & thankful for this experience entire. It is really so so good. Been meeting people from overseas, joined in dinners, drink sessions, partner's events, our own events, liase with foreign admin, got really Good presents from others, thrown out of my comfort zone, out of my stupid depressive state. Thank you God, for smacking my backside and make me really WORK my sorry arse. Cause that boosts my ego by 2 million folds, to be a constructive and useful person in a social context. Hmm, the bad thing is i haven't been the most sensitive person lately. If its not practical, and a waste of time, then forget it! The good thing is someone can tell me...hey this work you submitted is really substandard. I won't be mad at all. But sigh...have snapped at people for being slow. which is unkind behaviour =( That is no good.



Anyways, am hardly emo nowadays. Smiling all the time actually, and no time to bother about what others think. You think whatever you want to think. I think a friend ever mentioned that people are often trapped in their own world of problems. So true! Own problems are but a speck of fart in this BIG world. Stinks really BAD, but after awhile you have to smell it anyways. So smell it, deal with it. If you have to tolerate it, then hold your breath. If you can solve the problem, ask the fart-guilty to leave the room (please?), cause he is the problem. If you can escape the stench, well...pack your bags & leave! Justify your circumstance...and go for it! God is good!! ...but can i say that i have to miss cell this week again? cause my dad's bday? and i want to spend it with my family? =)



On another note..this past 2 mths has been a test of patience. For someone with the work reproductivity of a seedless grape, to one who can fairly multitask, there is hope! Great! Room for improvement as always. I pray for a humble heart, and a well-Fertilised brain, to think FAST. :)



Doreen is funny. I say Pms makes my mood goes like that...(picks up right index finger, to air-draw a sin-sin-cosine-sin curve). Then she goes, wah seh..mine is like that..(then she picks up her left index finger and air-draws a tangent curve...whahaha..apparently tan45 is -ve infinity??? IS IT? hahahah..so i laugh,because i think thats the next most appropriate thing to do if the joke is as funny as a Brazillian wax.



I say OUCH. not for myself, Doreen, this OUCH is for you.

hee hee haha hoho YAH!

Wah lau! Life is damn good! i am having a little EuReKa! moment in my head, followed by a nosedive into a pot of marshmellows, gobsmack against two fat cheese pratas, and roll down a hill!

Random Nothings

*blurred frequency*

Me: (Staring pensively in space)
"How much is a pound?"

Friend:"About 3 sing dollars"

Me:"eh? i mean kilos."

I must mention that we were in the gym. :)


....another hotel manager wants to treat lunch. This time is Susan from M Hotel, and i told her specifically i-am-an-intern. Still, she is ok with it???


Another one bites the dust.

i-like-my-maki-fried-chao-ta-brown

There is a comforting ease that comes with handing the reins over to Him. And let him guide the way. I have read and heard some Christians say, in the midst of their troubles that they don't feel weathered by the situation because they know that He is walking alongside with them. They must be really faithful in their Christian walk. Have never felt like that though. Always felt like a helpless floundering fly whose legs seemed to be perpetually glued to the viscous water surface. Cannot get out of the sticky situation, yet not willing to submit and ask for help. :(


Bro seems to be in a fidgetty mood as of late. Have no idea what the teenage hormones are doing to him. sji must be stressing him, he's going through that angsty phase. Despite the fact that we went out last week tog, to this jap buffet, all our conversation seemed to be centred around...hey ya, this salmon is good...you want cha soba?...or eee..i don't want wasabi on my maki..urgh. I was hoping for more than that you know.


Ok. Tmr will be better. Hey jacob, nice dinner btw.


Sigh...I think the bus just left me on West End.
And right, the shophouses look so damn unfamiliar. :(

Utter vexation, but! Have the sad face stashed away. :)

Random

The familiar-estate-by-the-PIE
Millenia Tower's little cascading fountain
Raspberry bucket from SINS chocolate
You promised me =)
Kopi sipper
Teabag dipper
Coffeebean
Starbucks frappucino
Lola Centro
Milkshake (by kelis) =)
oh ya, and how could i forget, MOS burger.

tick-le your fancy?

Whatever that gets a person, gets to the very core of the person. Which is not a particularly paralysing feeling, just that it feels like a hovering tick that flies in sporodic directions. Just waiting to get smacked. But i cannot get it smacked! Took a bus on Mon, and it weaved through a familiar estate, which had all the deja vu spewing from all places. Then i had to discipline myself, pack in the bits. Go to sleep, get to work.


I could feel a stupid smile crawling to my lips. Which isnt that good, cause that smile was not for now, but for the spewy thoughts in the mind, which was for last time, which should not be exhumed too frequently. =(


That aside, the next two weeks jas and i would be scurrying like 8legged mice. She is given ownership of one marketing event, and i'm given ownership of one channel event. So if anything goes kokocrunch on us, which is choy-by-the-way, then they will know whose arse to grill.


ok, good night, especially to mamasabai. Good talk we had.
And to vian, yeap, new asia's before you fly to kimchiland. =)

Stringed puppet

So you walk along, made commitments, put a little tick at the side, smile for a bit inside.
Calendar beckons to you, oooh it is coming, skip for a bit inside.
Good pete! It's today���smiles on the outside.


Then ok, it gets cancelled for some strange oncincvilerivlbeipb reason.
Well, maybe it pinches a bit. It just means not really important? or don���t really care? or..?
I don���t have time to think about the why-s and the how-comes. Ha, the more I pursue this thought, somehow it will turn a boomerang on me, and in the end I will feel like it must be because I deserved to be���ok. Stop.


your day must feel better than mine, I hope. :)

Lovely Sight

The lamp-post stood, absorbing the sight that skipped by. The lofty silence smirked sinister in the darkness. One came along, turned around the corner, it became two. Illumination hits.


Two passed the lamp-post, thir faces etched with the same silly mouth-twitch. A pool of light cuddled the arm-swinging two, as they print path-ed down the pavement. The slight pitter-patter of their feet laced a lovely shimmy amidst the surrounding canopy.


The light lends a tint on their faces, and glossed a stretching shadow on the pavement . It had a slight rhythmic flow to it. When it was short, the lamp-light saw it extend slightly, with each step, getting longer and longer, till the corners of the shadow became a blurry grey. Abruptly, it twirled to a black stump, like a playful pirouette of the little ballerina girl.


A bleached silence entwined with ebb of the night whispers, shrouded them in a translucent mist. Peachy rays teased kisses on their faces, left the two like blushed buttercups preened with an incandescent glow. Hand in hand, the basking moonlight watched one became two and two become nothing.


The guiding lamp-post, the dainty bouncing flies, the chorused crescendo of the bullfrogs melted into a beautiful palette as the two absconded into the darkness. It was yet another moonlit night.


They were just walking the distance, in symmetrical likeness.


What a lovely sight to behold.

Good molly sake!

Have been quite busy these few days, and moodless abit here there. Feel so matter of fact lately. Anyways, some awkward incidences, which turned out to be funny, in the black humour sense of it. Manager at Fullerton gave a sales presentation to me hawking the good time history of Fullerton. The way he presented was rather formal, maybe he assumed that im a significant person who can give him more business, just because i once booked 7 rooms for 3 nights, Quay rooms, mind you. The ones that faces our spewy Merlion. Oh my, when i told him i was all but a stir-fry ikan bilis, one who is leaving in 4 weeks. His face fell a bit, i didnt mean to deceive him or what. He didnt' ask me. :)


Anyways, and I'm so sorry Colin. :)


So we got a free lunch at Fullerton, no less. We as in Janice, Jasmine and myself. I have something amazing to share, but too tired to type in coherent sentences, maybe next time. Emo-woman was on my back past two days, calling me to remind me to use EVERY SINGLE CENT of the USD 5k budget, or SDG 8k. Ok, i got it. Actually i could feel myself getting hot and irritable as she repeated herself to me for the longest time.


Haggled like a curly-hair ah soh, squeeze the penny dry out of Scott, bugged him for discount upon discount. Made sure he didnt get away Scott-free from TOO much of the budget. Felt like a gleeful pink-assed baboon, when i raised the PR and total expenditure read $7999.25. Ok, return you seventyfive cents can??



And my one other assignment includes being a tourguide for two days. Sounds fun, but got to switch to the bubbly mode for abit.


Anyways, i think its not too good to keep asking the obvious. Why put your dignity on the line? Sometimes no answer is good, if you look at it, it is to save everybody the awkwardness. Hmm, i'm trying to be honest and tactful ya.


Will be extending attachment for one-two more weeks! I'm going to end it with a Bang! God has been looking out for me, I just know it! Got to entrust it to Him.


Good nights!

A whiff of air biscuit

Ah, back on my swivel chair to poop flatulent thoughts.

Had the pleasure of spending some time with two groups of friends both today and yesterday. Pretty stark contrast between the two. One was all guys, and the other, all girls. One was a pub, the other was at a bistro-like place. I just thought it was interesting to have a a singular gender outing on back to back days. Girls...take the longest time to decide on food. But of course, i'm not trying to disassociate myself from the confuddling madness that the females ponder upon a singular mushroom serving. Gee..mushrooms are nice. Should i get mushroom cheese melt sandwich or mushroom crepe in parmesan? Which in fact, you only have to decide on the crepe or the sandwich, ceteris paribus. And THAT, needs careful analysis, cause one looks like button mushroom, the other looks like straw mushroom. FINALLY, we decided..well since we cannot decide on which wild fungus to choose, we shall take two and share.Girls girls girls, share food, share drinks, share tips, share calories. I haven't got started on the different types of pasta, the sauce, and the meatballs. With that, twenty minutes was gone, i was so famished. Even the tabasco sauce was Saucy.


Guys eat anything basically. They go ok, beer, ok wings, ok wedges, ok you want fries, ok get fries, anything else, oh fish/chicken nuggets. Fast, and largely carnivorous. The conversation didnt really make sense to me, cause it was a lot of screen analysis, on the offsides, and good tackles, and what else?? A lot of name dropping here there, some players whose last names brought up some recall.


In summation, methinks girl outings are more interesting, conversation-wise. They wax lyrical about men and the men-u. That is if we can get through the food orders, and all the eee-aaahs--oohs about which food is less fattening. Nonetheless, it was nice. Actually, both groups were nice but in different ways :)


On a random note, i just watched a schmaltzy korean mv, via youtube. I am quite surprised how something as technical as a mv can manage to illicit those kind of feelings, when you know for a (tacky)fact, that it is Made to make you feel that way. Tsk tsk, emo-conspiracy! A bit too mawkish for me! I feel like a warm bumped-out goose.


So i decided to switch tunes and watched a ridiculous japanese show, with all the outrageous antics. With bird costumes and all. Japan has a very oldschooled/over-the-top culture all existing within a same geographical context. There's the quiant and zen-ed side, the economic powerhouse side, the lolita schoolgirl side. But again, i don't know much about the culture, so shan't comment too much. Just a rough impression sketch.


Good night!